Beauty

Sometimes I look at my daughter and she takes my breath away.

Beauty.

She is.

I don't know how I was so blessed with such a beautiful child both inside and out...and as cliche as it sounds it is really true.

Grand Adventure

18 days until we get to meet this little one. (who is keeping count...ohhh wait I am hehe)

I am of two minds with this number. First I am so excited it is almost over and I get to see who this little guy is that has been kicking me from the inside out, who has been stretching my body and hurting my hips. I am excited to have my body to myself again (although if I am breast feeding is it really my own body again..cause I am pretty sure I am still sharing it). I am excited to take the next step in this adventure we call parenthood. What more joy can two children give me? What memories will we create together? I am excited.

Second mind set is I am scared out of my mind! I am about to have a major surgery to get this little (ok not so little) guy out. What can go wrong...no I don't want to think about that. How much will it hurt? What will recovery feel like? When wont I be sore? Will I enjoy being home with a baby?? I am so used to a six year old can I adjust?

So you see where I am at? Flip flopping from one to the other...I hear the clock ticking and know we are getting closer to B day (birthday) and there is no stopping it. I am sure hormones play a part in my flip flopping mind....but still...how can I not be nervous?

I think I need a hug.

Getting Set

Soooo...bummed out. Sad because I still have so much longer to go before this little guy gets here...well unless nature takes it in it;s own hands and puts me into labour on my own.

Yesterday I was given my c-section date. I am booked to have this guy 7 am (need to be there for 5 am...ouch!) on June 14th (which also happens to be my birthday)

I am sad because I thought for sure it would be the 10th or June 2nd...I know it is not that big of a difference and shouldn't be so upset by this and I honestly can't answer as to why this has bummed me out so much.

On top of that the baby is still head up (which doesn't matter since I am having a c-section anyway) and also they need to check where the placenta is again in case it has worked it's way into my scar. In that case there is just the worry of my bleeding to death or needing an emergency hystorectomy. EEEEKKK!!

I go for that ultrasound June 8th. I am sure we would have known by now and I am thankful the doctor is being extra careful. Believe it or not I do want another child lol

Everything has been going well just the last few weeks I think my body has really started complaining about the weight gain (don't ask). My hips have vbeen given me so much trouble I feel like an 80 year old lady and should be walking with a cane or walker. This week they don't seem so bad...so I guess is comes and goes.

Matt has been supportive and helpful as usual. Lots of back rubs...I am sooo lucky.

On the weekend I had a surprise baby shower. It was wonderful to see the ladies from work and my friends and mom and mother in law. I had such a good weekend! Even my cousin Andrea came all the way down for it. We were totally spoiled and I am pretty sure we have everything we need for the baby and some!

I am nesting....I think lol. Today I have organized all the baby clothes (which I already washed and folded) have them put away, made the crib up and organized the babies room. All the toys are built we just need the baby now lol

Well I do believe that is all I have to say for today.

Ohhhh one more thing to add...I am 36 weeks but measure 42...so maybe you can understand why I feel so uncomfortable. I wonder how much bigger I could get?? Want to take bets anyone?

Stay at home mom stuff

Soccer Girl

Well surprise surprise (to me anyway) seems Evelynn is a natural at soccer. (ignoring the fact that near the end she tried to stand in the other teams net and block her team from scoring...not sure what happened there)...(and and minus the point when she ran off the field crying because a fly was in her mouth) she was really natural. Must be her English blood :-)

Thursday was her first soccer game and I am really proud of her. Considering the fact she has never played a real game (not even in gym class....strang I know...but she has played dodge ball so all is good in the world). Aside from some rain it was a great evening. Loved watching her out there and seeing her face light up when she looked across the field at me.

I am not sure which team won but thats ok...the important part was the kids had fun anddddddddd there was tim bits!! woot woot!

The newest little one

So first off..No Matt and I did not have our baby yet (although I am feeling sooo ready and uncomfortable...only 4-5 more weeks.....only....)

Matts brother and sister in law welcome their newest addition to the family. Isabella. She is soo sweet and sooo tiny and we are so happy she is here.

They already have the cutest little boy ever and now they have a lovely daughter to add to their family.

They are a great couple, wonderful parents and truly blessed.

Matt and I were lucky enough to be able to drive up there Saturday to meet her. Hard to believe we saw her only a few hours after she was born. Something like that is hard to put your head around...well at least it was for me. It was truly amazing!.

Now let me see if I can figure out how to share a picture. Sadly our home computer has had it and that is where the pictures are saved....but with luck I can steal it from facebook maybe hehe