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Be Afraid

This post is for Mary. Hopefully tonight if all goes well and Evelynn goes to bed nicely for Mommy I can do a proper post.

Yesterday Mary at work had asked to see some pregnant photos of myself. I wanr you now...if you do not want to see something huge and disgusting look away now. As most of you know I gained something like 88 pounds during my pregnancy. Normal people gain around 30 and you should never gain anything more then 35 I believe.

But when have I ever been normal??

So if you do not wish to see this Look Away NOW!! hehehe

This first picture was around 5-6 months. It is not so bad a little big still for that early.



Now to the scary stuff. These are from the week I was due. eeek







I warned you!! Hope you enjoyed them Mary.

PB&J

Had a very busy weekend with Evelynn. A fun one.

Start with Friday night. Evelynn and I had a girls night. We did a PJ party which she loves. She usually has those with Grandma but I thought I would try and make it a fun Friday for her. We had a nice Kraft dinner. Then it was time for the PJ's and we also painted our nails. Well I cut and painted hers. Then we went downstairs and
I made popcorn and put in a movie that April brought over for us. It was called Hoodwinked and it is now Evelynns Favourite movie. She loved it. She also loved the popcorn. Then it was off to bed.

Evelynn had me up at the usual 5 am time. I think I was able to keep her quiet until 7 am and we headed downstairs for breakfast. Grandma called to tell us she was coming over and we would all go to the park and then shopping. Evelynn got really excited and started jumping and yelling YIPPIE!! Of course the jerks beside us started banging on the wall *sigh* This was at 9:30.

Well For lunch Evelynn made a PB&J sandwich. With my help of course. Her first one, her first taste of Peanut Butter. The child LOVED it and couldn't get enough. I am sorry for holding out on her but with all the rules about introducing peanut butter to children I was scared. Everything went well and there was no reactions thankfully. We also made Peanut Butter cookies. I tell you I cannot bake. They got burnt. lol


Had some fun at the park and shopping then home for a nap. After nap it warmed up outside so we went for a walk before dinner. It was so nice and a really enjoyable walk. Had dinner and a bath and went to bed very nicely.

She actually slept in on Sunday. Got to sleep until 8 am and it felt gooooood! :) Spent the morning cleaning and getting ready for the family reunion which Evelynn was really looking forward to. She was sooo happy this morning singing and helping me clean then the stupid neighbour (everyone knows who I mean since I talk about what mean jerks they are) came knocking on my door. This is how the conversation went;

Jerk: Ummm is there any reason why she is making so much noise in the morning?
Me: Yeah she is two.
Jerk: Well why is she jumping and screaming around?
Me: Because she is two and excited.
Jerk: Well are you leaving her unsupervised?
Me: No I don't think so. What to you expect me to do? Tie her to a chair????!!!
Jerk: No no no. I don't want it to come to that.
Me: Of course it wont come to that I am not going to tie my child to a chair!!
Jerk: Well I was making sure she wasn't being unsupervised and she makes so much noise.
Me: She is being watched and she is two. Bye.

O.K. It was a short conversation but I am proud I stuck up for myself. Really Pissed me off him coming here. Really get a life!! Two year olds do not know how to tell time. It was 10 in the morning not 5 am!! Really whose business is it why my child is loud! What are they going to do call the cops again because my child is making noise in the morning!. I am worried they will be total jerks and say I am leaving my child unsupervised. Anyone who knows me knows I wouldn't do such a thing but I can see them doing something like that. I can't wait to move!!! arrrgghghh!

Ok onto the eveing. Saw fireworks at Big Grandma and grandpas house. Evelynn didn't like them at first but by the end was ohhh-ing and awwww-ing. Late night for her cause she didn't get to bed until after 10. Maybe just maybe she will sleep in for me??

Vicky my Idol

Tonight was an awesome night. First note we got the dresses picked out for Aprils wedding. One less thing to worry and stress about. Second note went to Vicky's for dinner.

Vicky is one of my 'Lunch Bunch moms'. he is amaziing and I really look up to her. As I do all of my ladies. She made the most fantastic dinner ever and dessert! Yummy! Let me tell you was I ever full. I had no idea anyone could cook like that. Her talents amaze me. Her house was awesome!! Something you dream about. Well something I dream about. I hope one day I can have a house as fantastic as that.


We played Dance Dance Revolution (aka DDR).It was sooo much fun. I am sorry if I made them feel old by saying that I could never picture my parents doing something like that. It's true though. I could not imagine my mom even trying to play that game. My dad..well not a chance. I so want that game. We were laughing and screaming and breaking a sweat. yes..I cannot dance. It is true. I was horrible. I had the lowest score everytime and even once got booed off. We all knew I couldn't dance anyway so nothing new there.


I have Evelynn this weekend. It should be a busy one so I am not sure if I will get a chance to post or not. Hopefully Evelynn is a good girl for me. She has been a little naughty lately and not going to bed like I like. She has been coming out of bed or causing all sorts of trouble up in her room. Pulling things out throwing things on the floor. Really not her usual self. Before I could count on her going to bed and staying there. The worst was maybe reading to herself for too long which wasn't a big deal. She is also calling me up the stairs a million times. Which can be frustrating. She has been testing me a lot with the no dummy unless you are in bed rule. I feel horrible having her scream and cry at me but it is for her own good. Potty training still isn't moving along very well. I just don't understand if she gets it or can't be bothered with it. She is going to be three soon and I just feel she is too old to be acting this way. What do I know though. She is my first child so you get to make all the mistakes on the first one right? lol I am kidding.

I am looking forward to the weekend though. Hopefully the weather is nice and we can spend lots of time outside. I have Monday off work so we can spend an extra day together. Maybe do some baking and grocery shopping or something.

Thats all..will keep everyone updated as I can. Hopefully I will be able to take a ton of pictures too. I am charging my batteries now to be ready for the weekend.

Shadows

(not sure who wrote this but I thought it was lovely)

Her Little Shadows

I saw a young mother
with eyes full of laughter
and two little shadows
came following after.

Where ever she moved
they were always right there
holding onto her skirts,
hanging onto her chair.
Before her, behind her
an adhesive pair.

'Don't you ever get weary
As, day after day,
your two little tagalongs
get in your way?'

She smiled as she shook
her pretty young head,
and I'll always remember
the words that she said.

'Its good to have shadows,
that run when you run,
that laugh when your happy
and hum when you hum
for you only have shadows
when your life's filled with sun.'

Happy Mothers Day

My third Mothers day. Boy is that hard to believe. I wont get into how fast time is flying and blah blah again. But I mean really! THIRD!



This was a sweet Mothers Day. Mark had Evelynn this weekend which was good and bad. It made it a nice relaxing Mother's Day but also I missed my baby.






I got a nice Happy Mother's Day!! Yelled at me over the phone from Evelynn. Totally cute. Mark also was nice enough to bring her around mine on Sunday. They came with a nice plant of tulips. Also a nice card that Evelynn drew in. Those are special to me.

This Mother's day I was honoured by being treated by a lot of my friends. First two weeks before Mothers Day Jen mailed me a card. A tear jerker card. She wrote how she really respected my courage. I don't feel I have anymore courage then anyone else. I don't see it any other way. You do what you have to do. I don't only do it because I have to but because I love to. I love my daughter.

April took me to dinner Saturday night. Treated me. was so sweet and so much fun. Tried food I had never tried before and really just had a laugh. I always enjoy myself with April.

I also got flowers sent to me Saturday from my friends Matt. was a very thoughtful gift. Although sneaky in a way because he told me his mom wanted my address!! tsk tsk Matt. It was a nice surprise.

I didn't know that my friends thought I was such an amazing Mother and worth all of their pampering too. Thanks guys!

It feels odd to me when my friends say they respect my courage and strength. I don't feel I did anything to deserve their respect. I didn't do anything different then anyone of my friends would do. I had a child and it is the most amazing thing I have ever done in my life. Now this sounds so strange coming from me and those that know me know why...but I am starting to feel that one day in the future I wouldn't mind having more children. I might actually love more children one day. Coming from the girl who pleaded with the doctors to tie her tubes because I knew without a doubt I would never ever want more children.

Now I wont get too deep this post and I wont make myself cry again so I will end it hear. Also Evelynn has come out of bed twice now and I have gone upstairs three times so I keep losing my train of thought. The little stinker.

Thats what I can't believe, with all the struggles and sleepless nigths, pain of labour and getting fat. Bottles and diapers, colds and teething. That I am actually thinking one day I might want to do this again.


Someone slap some sense into me now!!

Not lost

I know everyone has been wondering where in the World I have gone. Well I have still been here. I just didn't know what to write so I took a little break. i know it wasn't nice of me to not tell anyone I was breaking and honeslty almost everynight I did mean to post but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to it.

The big news which I will just go over quickly is that Kenny and I have parted to go our seperate ways. I wont go into detail or anything but I do feel it is for the best of both of our interests to have ended it sooner rather then later.

Evelynn has been keeping me pretty busy. I like it that way. Now the weather is nicer I try to be out as much as possible. Last week instead of coming home after Anns I just parked the car and we went for a nice long walk. We walked to Aprils work to pop in and say hi. We walked for a good hour and a half and then stopped for some pizza. it was so nice being able to eat outside. Evelynn was really good. We played around a bit after we ate. We danced to the music over the speakers, I swung her around until we were both sooo dizy we were falling over. I am sure we were the sight.

Now I am going to put Evelynn to bed. I feel better that i got something on the blog now. I will post some more and some pictures when she is in bed. Now it is story time.

Once again I am sorry to everyone who was worried.

Mommy is a Princess

FYI...
Just so you all know, I am a princess. Evelynn knows. She knows all about the subject. She has spent many years studying it. So from now on I expect people to bow when I walk into a room. Hail princess Tanya!
hehehe
Ohh Evelynn is a princess too and anything with eyelashes. She taught me that too.

Us Girls!

Wanted to share two photos from Dallas Green on friday! One is of Sara, Jackie and me. The other is crazy Sara. I need to remind you I live with this girl! Thank God! She can really make me laugh and I love her! The other photos are just crazy Sara so some of you may have an idea of what I get to experience everyday! I LOVE it!!