Making a list

And checking it twice

Count down to Cuba! I leave this week for Cuba (actually Cayo-Coco) for a week. I am sooo excited (except for the flying to get there part but that is a minor detail) I can’t wait to be relaxing on a warm beach and distressing. As most know the last few months have been some of (maybe the most) stressful days of my life. I don’t want to go in detail but just make a note that it has been stressful for me!

Not only do I hate the actual traveling part of a holiday I also hate the packing. I have yet to come up with the prefect formula for packing. My problem is I either pack to much or too little.

Of course I always make a check list but still something extra goes in or something gets left out thinking at the last minute I won’t need or use it and not until I am there do I realise that I wanted it.

Not to worry too much as everything will work out and anything I forgot I am sure Jenn will have brought. Hehe As I know she has thought of everything (and did I mention already packed!)

A Game Night!!

Woot Woot!

Tonight is Thursday…well actually today and all of it including tonight is Thursday. My point is that it is the long lost game night! Once again to be resurrected and I am sooo happy! I really truly love game nights. It is a fun way for everyone (most of the group) to get together and laugh.

Game nights used to consist of a dinner followed by games but since the group has gotten too large it is just games (and maybe a drink or two)

Tonight is going to be a busy one. Firstly my parents are coming for dinner. I am going to make my yummy mushroom chicken which doesn’t taste anything like mushrooms. Here is the link http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Baked-Mushroom-Thighs/Detail.aspx to the recipe if anyone wants it. It is very tasty and super moist and like I said it doesn’t taste like mushrooms at all (cause I know a lot of people don’t like mushrooms).

After Evelynn goes to bed everyone will start to arrive for the gaming!! I think tonight we might just play identity crisis again. It is a newer game that we (I mean Matt) got from my Mom and step-dad for Christmas. Way better then I thought it would be and have played it a few times already. I think my parents will stay to play (even though my mom likes to be in bed for eight lol) I know they are very curious to see how this game works.

I am really looking forward to having the group together for a game night. It feels like ages since we have all gotten together. Actually it has been since before December that we have even had a proper try at game night. I know not all of the game group will be there but I have a feeling most will be trying. Plus I bribed them with pigs in a blanket hehehe.

Sad Sad Sociey

So because I want to blame my problems on someone else I think I will. It is fun to point fingers! Lol j/k. What I want to say is I am blaming my self esteem problems on society and the reason being is “HELLO!!” they are calling Jessica Simpson Fat! I mean come on!!! Give me a break. No wonder there is such a huge anorexia problem! If Jessica Simpson is fat then I am obese! Just makes me sick the way we judge each other on our weight and looks when none of that even matters. That is not important but we put such emphasis on our appearance as though that means more then anything. Means more then being kind, means more then being productive in society, means more then being a criminal!

No wonder my five year old daughter comes home from school with comments such as “I’m fat”, “I have a fat bum”, “Look how fat my thighs are”. WTH!! Really! She is five. It hurts sooo much to hear her say those things and I cannot believe at five they already are concerned with their weight! Society stinks sometimes! I am not going to say I never get down and compare myself to the stick thin stars. I know I never say any of those things about myself in front of my daughter or anytime she is even remotely close enough to hear them or pick up on them.

Some of the things she says just blow me away. Makes me very concerned and worried that I am not teaching her the right values. I never judge someone by their weight and always tell her to never judge a book by the cover; it is what is on the inside that matters.

I can recall one night when I was putting her to bed and she said to me that she was happy she didn’t have a fat Mommy. What do you say to that! I was shocked and couldn’t believe that I heard her right. I told her that it doesn’t matter if a Mommy is fat or thin what matters is if she loves her children and does everything she can for them.

Do you see what I mean?! How can my child be so judgmental to herself and others about weight?? I teach her that looks and size does not matter but still there is obviously a stronger influence at play.

I question myself…obviously I am not doing something right there? At five, at ten, at fifteen even at twenty she should not be thinking those things about herself or others. I don’t know what to do differently. I just hope that with time my lessons (like some others) sink in. I don’t want my daughter to be a part of a sad society.

Tic Toc Lost

So the best of things are always started with good intentions right? I was soo excited I found my blog, so eager to start posting (regularly) and *fizz* *pop* that’s it??? After only two entries!! No no no….I will not give up that easy and of course I have an excuse. (Isn’t that handy) Really though I do! You see my computer is not working so I can’t post at home. I will try now to make more of an effort to post from work…plus it makes sense to do it from work…blogging is not eating into my relaxing on the couch play video games or watch a movie time! Great plan I know…only took me a few weeks to think of it. Sorry I am slow I have a lot of on my mind! (See how easy excuses are to make)

Now…what to write?? Do you want to know about my day to day life (you as in April since she is the only one that reads this lol) or my inner secret thoughts and dreams and regrets and hopes?? I know! You want the juicy stuff!! Lol I honestly don’t know what you will get. Writing is like painting or my songs that I make up…I don’t know what is going to come out…it just happens. I once described my painting as being possessed and honestly that is how all of it feels. It just happens…I don’t think about it first. My fingers start typing and ohhh look I wrote a story….I start singing and wow that was a cool song (mostly I say “what did I just say” lol cause I don’t know what came out of my mouth) Painting is the same, I don’t think about what I am going to paint and my hands start moving and next thing I know I am done. I love it but it is truly a strange state to be in.


I will start with this weekend and what went down. Firstly it was Friday!! Yeah the way most weekends start. (Except for next since I have Friday off hehe) hmmmm…so what did I do Friday??? Ohhh yes I made dinner I remember that…and then gave Evelynn a bath and played Barbie’s!! Hehehe I remember when I was little and I used to bug my mom to play Barbie’s with me. I used to get sooo mad that she wouldn’t play whenever I wanted. I swore up and down that once I became a Mommy I would play Barbie’s with my daughter whenever she wanted! How the roles change. Evelynn gets mad cause it seems I never have the time to play with her whenever she wants. Mommy has to cook, or clean or pack lunches or fold laundry. No Barbie’s whenever she wants, but I do try and she gets Barbie’s with Mommy whenever I can. Let me tell you though that Barbie’s are not as fun to play with as I remember.

Saturday morning was Evelynn’s dance class. She is taking tap, ballet and hip hop. It is extremely cute to see all the little girls dancing and trying to keep up with the teacher. I couldn’t keep up so you can imagine five year olds trying. Poor Evelynn has inherited my coordination. Hehehe I am sure it will improve but honestly I have no rhythm so why would I expect my daughter to. She has fun and enjoys doing it and that is all that matters. Also maybe since she has gotten into it so young she will learn coordination?? Maybe…cause really that can’t be inherited right??

She can’t inherit a clumsy gene can she? Point is, too cute; hurt my cheeks smiling with pride and her dancing her heart out without a care in the world.

Straight after dance we drive to Grimsby to see Matt’s Dad and have dinner with him. Had a nice visit. Evelynn said that he made the best spaghetti she has ever had! She was learning how to play chess which amazed me since she was doing well. I don’t even know how to play and I am sure she could kick my butt! Is it pathetic that my five year old can teach me how to play chess??

After dinner we went to Matt’s Mom’s house. Evelynn had a late night playing with the kids and us adults had a good laugh playing a board game. We played a new one that we got called Identity Crisis; it is a lot of fun!

Sunday I was co-hosting a baby shower for my sister in-law. Everyone had a great time and my new nephew James slept through the whole thing being passed around from lady to lady.

I don’t know why I was laughing in my head at all the ladies wanting to hold the little guy. I guess because it is so predictable or stereotypical. Lol! But it is true! They all flock (including myself) drooling and itching to hold the little baby. We all stare at the little feet and little hands remembering our own and trying hard to imagine they were that small again (which is odd since when they are that small I couldn’t wait for her to get as big as she is now) It was a good time and all the ladies had fun. I think I made my mother-in-law proud as she kept telling all the ladies it was all my plans hehe.

I hope this weekend coming is a little more relaxing and I am looking forward to just being at home. We are on the road a lot and to me nothing is better then being at home. It is hard when family live so far apart from each other.

That is all for now and to be honest I think I did a good job! Let’s see what tomorrow will bring.

Tanna