Sad Sad Sociey

So because I want to blame my problems on someone else I think I will. It is fun to point fingers! Lol j/k. What I want to say is I am blaming my self esteem problems on society and the reason being is “HELLO!!” they are calling Jessica Simpson Fat! I mean come on!!! Give me a break. No wonder there is such a huge anorexia problem! If Jessica Simpson is fat then I am obese! Just makes me sick the way we judge each other on our weight and looks when none of that even matters. That is not important but we put such emphasis on our appearance as though that means more then anything. Means more then being kind, means more then being productive in society, means more then being a criminal!

No wonder my five year old daughter comes home from school with comments such as “I’m fat”, “I have a fat bum”, “Look how fat my thighs are”. WTH!! Really! She is five. It hurts sooo much to hear her say those things and I cannot believe at five they already are concerned with their weight! Society stinks sometimes! I am not going to say I never get down and compare myself to the stick thin stars. I know I never say any of those things about myself in front of my daughter or anytime she is even remotely close enough to hear them or pick up on them.

Some of the things she says just blow me away. Makes me very concerned and worried that I am not teaching her the right values. I never judge someone by their weight and always tell her to never judge a book by the cover; it is what is on the inside that matters.

I can recall one night when I was putting her to bed and she said to me that she was happy she didn’t have a fat Mommy. What do you say to that! I was shocked and couldn’t believe that I heard her right. I told her that it doesn’t matter if a Mommy is fat or thin what matters is if she loves her children and does everything she can for them.

Do you see what I mean?! How can my child be so judgmental to herself and others about weight?? I teach her that looks and size does not matter but still there is obviously a stronger influence at play.

I question myself…obviously I am not doing something right there? At five, at ten, at fifteen even at twenty she should not be thinking those things about herself or others. I don’t know what to do differently. I just hope that with time my lessons (like some others) sink in. I don’t want my daughter to be a part of a sad society.