Five and a half

Dear Evelynn,

I wish I started writing letters to you sooner. Once a month from when you were born. I see lots of moms do that and I really wish I had. It is a wonderful way to keep track of your progress and growth. So easy do, we forget the little things. How our minds fog with time.

I want to be able to answer your questions when you are older about what you did at what age and what you were like as a little girl. I hope I can. I will do my best and that is all you can ask from anyone and especially yourself. Always do your best.

There are letters I wrote you in your baby book. Nothing regularly but at least they are there.

Five and a half…five and a half. Amazing. My once little bundle of sweet baby in my arms is five and a half. I am speechless. There is so much I wish to tell you but I am utterly speechless with the specialness of you and this wonderful age. I do long for my baby girl but I am excited for the changes I see in you my darling daughter. The little independent person you are. Each day is new and wonderful and to get to see the world through your innocent eyes is one of the greatest gifts.

I know that Mothers and Daughters have a special bond, but I would like to think that ours is more special then any other before us. The closeness I feel to you and the unconditional love takes my breath away sometimes. How did I get sooo lucky? I know I must be doing something right with you.

You tell me I am your best friend and my wish is for that to never change. You say ‘Mom I can tell you anything right?’ my answer is always the same, ‘Always Evelynn, always”.

We have so much fun together and I am glad your interest are growing and maturing. We play board games and cards which are one of my favourite things to do and to get to share that with you and pass on the love of gaming with you is a wonderful experience. I know that there will be many nights full of laughter and cards as the years go by, as you turn into a woman and have your own children.

You love school. You are in senior kindergarten which means you only go every other day. You hate nonschool days. I think that is awesome and hope for you to always have a love and joy for learning. Education is a key that can unlock many doors for you in your future. I will try to always encourage you to do your best and be your best. I know you can do it.

You are my perfectionist. How you get frustrated when you are unable to do something on your first try. You are starting to learn that practice makes perfect. Often you say it before I get a chance to. If you are doing something and start to get frustrated you catch yourself now and say, “That’s ok right Mom? Practice makes perfect and I will get it the more I try right?” Could it be that my lessons are sinking in? I just hope that I can teach you the right ones.

I find it hard to believe I am your mother. I have this huge responsibility that weighs heavy on me. It is not a burden by any means, just something I am aware of and of course nervous that I am not going to do it right.

I know in the end the most important thing to give you is love and love you have plenty of. Not a day or hour goes by when we are together that I don’t tell you I love you or let you know how special you are to me. You do the same thing to me and darling…it is wonderful to hear those words (no matter how many times a day you say it).

Love Mommy