Funny Kids

Ok I think I can admit this now or have finally come to the realization myself. I have been slacking. Slacking on myself. You know when you get to that place where you feel comfortable with your significant other that you stop trying? You know…who needs to wear make-up? Why should I brush my hair?

Well I hit that spot. It wasn’t just because I was comfortable with Matt (which I totally am and I know how much he loves me and is attracted to me) But it had a whole lot to do with how I felt about myself. I just didn’t want to bother anymore. So much has happened this last year….so much life changing (maybe I need counselling crap) has happened this year that I didn’t want to try. It wasn’t important to look good. Well…I was wrong.

As you go down that path and start caring less and less about how you look you start liking yourself less and less. At least for me. I wasn’t happy with what was happening to me and I didn’t know who I was anymore?

It is amazing what a little make-up and self care can do for your self esteem. You walk a little taller (not easy when you are 4’ 11) you have a bit more bounce in your step. A little more confidence in who you are.

Ok now I am sure you guys are wondering what this has to do with funny kids. Well last week I put on some eye liner (first time in ages) Also I wore contacts (usually I have glasses on). Evelynn watched me do my make-up and was amazed. She wanted to touch my eye lashes and thought I looked pretty. Off I went to work not thinking much of it other than I was trying to look more presentable…putting in an effort. Well after work we had Evelynn’s fun fair/meet the teacher night. Walking down the hall with Evelynn she sees her gym teacher. So first thing Evelynn does and say Mrs Blank (not her real name hehe) this is my mom! Isn’t she pretty she put on make-up today! (doh smack myself on the head and feel pretty embarrassed) I realized then that it must have been a while. It was a pretty big deal to Evelynn and I felt bad that I don’t put in as much effort as I used to. What example am I showing Evelynn? OK I know this can be taken the wrong way. I know it is a good example to show her to be comfortable with herself and that she doesn’t need make-up to feel beautiful. I get that. It is understood. But what I want to show her is that it is just as important to do things that do make “you” feel beautiful (whether it be wearing make-up or doing your nails or working out at the gym) As mothers we tend to start caring less about ourselves somewhere along the way and more about everyone else. We buy our kids and husbands clothes and try to make them look good…because it is a reflection on us. But why oh why do we not stop and think and try to make ourselves look good?? Isn’t that the biggest reflection of all?