Growing Up Before my Eyes

I just want to take a moment…step away from the hectic schedule. I want to take a moment and see Evelynn. I want to take her in…because this moment is almost gone. I can feel it. I see her on the cusps right now. The cusps of little girl and little lady.

I want to hold her hand in mine for a little bit longer. Her hand may now almost be the size of mine but she still wants to hold it. She still automatically reaches her hand up to find mine when we are walking. How can I hold onto this moment?

Mother after Mother I am sure has asked this…have tried to savour these years. Have tried to find one way or another to make it last just a little bit longer….to squeeze all there is out of this. But they can’t…they couldn’t.
I need to enjoy right now because right now she still wants to sit on my lap. Right now she wants to cuddle with me on the couch. Right now I know a whole lot. Right now I am beautiful. Right now I am the best Mommy in the world and right now I can feel her growing up.

I took this picture last week. This was the picture that made me open my eyes and realize how soon this is going to be over. How soon my little cutie pie girl is going to be a little lady. I can see her changing right before my eyes. I see it as I stare at this picture.

What is a Mother to do? It is wonderful to see these changes but it’s scarier than anything! I am not ready for this! I push her to be more independent and do things herself for herself…but now I just want to take it all back! I want to do it for her I want her to need me I want her to be little for a little bit longer.

What is a Mother to do?