Life before me

So...as you may know, I did not post yesterday. Really I wasn't going to post tonight either. I have nothing interesting to write about. I am sure you all want to know the details of my grocery shopping but I will spare you. It was uneventful.

Watched some tv when I got home and now..blogging.
I am sure that if I had Evelynn tonight I would have had something nice or maybe even funny to write about, but I don't and I wont have her until tomorrow.

Well, talking to Erica right now about getting my tattoo this weekend. I am really excited about getting it but at the same time scared. I don't want to whimp out. I wont but i am a little chicken. My lunch bunch moms are really upset that I am getting a tattoo but I am trying to tell them that it doesn't change who I am and I will still be the sweet ol' me. I am sure I will be able to handle the pain though. I am tougher then I think I am. April says I am the strongest person she knows...but I don't think she means physically. But pain is all mental hehehe.

Anyway if I did whimp out (which I wont) and end up with only a dot I will just tell everyone that was my plan and I got the whole world. Just like Phoebe did on friends. (Thanks Vicky)

The title to this blog is Life before me which is intended for Evelynn really. It is really funny how one little person can change your life so much. Sometimes the thoughts do cross my mind of where would I be now if I had never had had her. I wouldn't want to be there I can tell you that because I would never give her up for the world (even the on the most testing of days) but you do wonder. My guess..if I had to guess would be that I would still be working at the daycare or that I would now be a teacher in some school. I don't think I am missing out on anything super exciting. I would not have become rich or famous. I am rich now. Rich with the love I have for my daughter and the love I receive from her. (I know it is cheesy but so very very true)

What did my life consist of before her? Well nothing too different from what it is now other than my focus. No longer is it on myself as number one but as Evelynn being number one.

Future plans...yes I do have plans for myself but they are more for the benefit of Evelynn. I want to make lots of money to be able to put Evelynn in all sorts of fun activities. I want to be able to put a good roof over her head and food in her belly. I want her to wear nice things (don't have to be name brand just clean and in good condition) I don't want to worry about coming up with money for school trips or books. So, not about me but about Evelynn. I know money is not the answer to life's problems.

My focus is also on being a good loving mother to Evelynn. To find activities we can do together like our nightly dance or trips to the library. Lovely mommy moments (as i call them)

I do still find time to enjoy myself (and it is not all that hard when I only have her 50% of the time for now) so this post totally went off to nowhere and I don't even know what I was trying to say. Everyone knows I love my daughter, I know I love my daughter and most important she knows I love her.

At least I got my post in and don't feel like I have been slacking in the posting department.