2nd one:



I heart you...

Valentines day ...tomorrow. What can you think of Valentines day? everyone knows that some marketing company thought it would be a great way to make money. Which it is. I hate it though. Why do we have to have a day marked on our calendars to show someone we care. I know i am not the first person to say this. At the sametime though...if i don't get something i feel bummed? Where is the logic in that?!?
Also i am in a new relationship..so then there are the thoughts of A: what do I buy him?, B: do I buy him? (I am the girl and i am not sure on the rules of this...i know i have bought in the past but not all the time...hmmm?) C: How much am i supposed to spend?!?!
There should by some sort of instructions to follow for these sorts of events. You know what i mean. Lay it out straight. 1st year spend $10 or something, 2nd year $20 maybe $25??? i dunno! Does anyone know?
I went to the mall tonight and found a great gift for my daughter Evelynn though. I bought her the book Love You Forver by Robert Munsch. I love that book. i remember it from when I was a child. It makes me cry. I am going to write something cheesey inside the cover in hopes she will cherish it forever and ever. I have no problems buying for her. I can always find something i am sure she will love. Or i will love. I am still a big kid at heart.
God i cannot wait for her to come home. I miss her so much. She is in england with her dad for 3 weeks. One more week to go and i get my baby back. Baby she hardly is. Can you believe This last week i got a newsletter in the mail telling me my baby is grown and almost ready for school?! How did this happen. sure it is a ways off yet..but really only a year before I register her? Once again i cried. That is hard for me to admit because I am not a crier..well at least not that anyone knows. How fast they grow. Sometimes i wish i could go back..just for a little bit. Hold her again..feed her again..just have her do something as simple as sleep in my arms again. I know those days i will never get back...but i can dream.
I am sure if anyone actually is reading my blog at all they will notice that i really jump from subject to subject. i kinda think thats a good thing. means i have a lot to say. That has come as a surprise to me actually. i thought it would be hard to even get a line down but i am finding i just have to stop myself before it becomes too long and no one will read it. Maybe it already is.
Hopefully soon i can figure out how to add wallpaper and pictures and make it more colourful.
until then...